I Can Not!

I can not help but think that I have pushed you away somehow.

Every time you try to get closer, I shut down a little more inside.

I can not change the way I was built so long ago.

Sometimes I feel I should end it all to spare you more pain.

I can not bring myself to tell you everything I feel inside.

Every night I pray to God to help me figure myself out.

I can not figure out how you can see inside me.

Some nights I am scared you will see too much of me.

I can not hide from you, as much as I feel I need to.

Every day I try to push myself into telling you how I'm feeling.

I can not understand why you are still with me.

Some days I ask myself, how do I deserve someone like you?

I can not hold in these feelings I have for you any longer.

Every moment I am with you, these words want to burst from my lips.

I can not ever love someone the way I love you!

Some moments with you are like living in a dream.

I can not live without you!